Walking: A Thing of the Past
When the tumors appeared in my legs last June, I never imagined it would lead to me not walking. As the tumors became more and more painful, it started creeping into my mind that it was a possibility. I talked to my physical therapists about doing everything possible to keep me walking and for a while we were successful at keeping me upright. I hobbled along with a cane, tried using a walker (and failed), functioned with a wheelchair part-time, and now walking is a thing of the past.
From the moment we take our first steps in life, walking is a learned skill that is seemingly invaluable. Our parents marvel at the sight and as a child you can’t help but bask in the glory of championing such an awe inspiring feat. Once the stability arrives, being upright is the only way to go. This just reinforces my frustrations of not being able to walk.
When you are healthy person, you never imagine not being able to walk. We walk almost everywhere we go and we most definitely take it for granted. This is especially true when I would meet someone who was ill or handicapped who were unable to walk. I would feel terrible for them! How do you do things? Does it hurt? These are questions I would ask, but the answers would always go right over my head. Wish I would have listened…
Now, I’m facing my own challenges. For instance, a few weeks ago, I was transferring out of our vehicle into my electric scooter when my hand slipped causing my head to hit the door. This caused a chain reaction of my head snapping back and the left side of my head smashing into the frame of the car, knocking me out cold. This is not commonplace when you’re able to walk.
I understand my medical situation is very unique and finding doctors who have ever dealt with this kind of exposure to toxins is nearly impossible, but I would love to be able to walk again. I am still doing physical therapy at home which is keeping the muscles around my knees strong, but the pain has left me a long ways from walking.
My wife and I will continue to pray that a doctor gets put into my path. No matter what happens, I’m thankful everyday that I’m still alive and I’ll be staying positive as long as God continues to bless me with life.